Well its been about two weeks since the last posting. Not a whole lot has changed. Except maybe realizing how much more in debt we really are. I was going to say poorer, but i didn't want to make us sound totally destitute, and yet, I think we might actually be approaching that particular landing pad.
Over the past two weeks, we have had to juggle a great deal of where our available money from our checks has been gong too. You know, such as, what bill gets paid and the sort, and also how much money is there gong to be left over for us to live on. Lets just say that my Mom, who is 89 and lives on whats considered poverty level, has been giving us money to help us get by on a week to week basis. Oh its not really alot, you know like just enough for us to both get as int he cars and stuff. Oh at first i really didn't want to, i mean I really didn't want to but embarrassing enough, it didn't take me long to cave in. But I make sure that's shes not restricting herself. I guess its that "mother's love" kind of thing. And she really does love my wife.
We've had to learn alot about getting along in a world without the instant gratification of living on credit cards. Our cards are maxxed out, so we cant use them. We have to try to make things stretch a little more than usual, and its not all that easy. There's one day a week where we have to babysit my sister - in-laws two young children, she has a sitter most of the time, but I think to help conserve money, we help out. My sister in law is quite nice and I do love her alot. But when the kids come over they do tend to eat and drink a whole lot. and right now its not a good time for that. I know that my sister in Law, Nicole< class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">alot of money woes also, but They don't realize how much more we're into it. You would think that they might bring a bit of their food over. My wife doesn't really like that I think that way. But hell, I have to think about us right now.
Anyways, living on the edge with not much money makes you feel a certain amount of humility. And that's the point that i want to make. Being brought down a whole lot of levels to feel the humility that we as both a couple and as individuals have either forgotten or never have gotten to a level like this to know what it is. And hence the title of this blog.
Not everybody may agree with me on this, but hear me out. The current economic downfall, is hitting everyone world wide. not just the Unites States, but everywhere. I have been watching recently on the history channel several specials dedicated to the upcoming event that is supposed to happen on December 21, 2012. So many ideas about what may be happening or what could or might happen. What kind of totally global event could possibly take place to reduce our population to a mere fraction of what it was. What could be so mind numbing that when we find out what happens that all we will want to do is sit on a hill and wait for it, or unless you have criminal tendencies, steal and rob and maim and all that good stuff. But maybe, just maybe it isn't something that's so tangible like that. What if its something that's happening now and we wont really see bottom until that date. What if, this is God's way of punishing us without destroying the world. What if its just and incredible amount of Humility that we all have to take every day, twice a day, making us frown at the thought of it like tasting the acidic mintiness of NyQuil. And what if its a humility so bad that we will not ever take anything for granted again. What if its just that. Humility.
I'm not Nostradamus, but the other night I was thinking and all of a sudden it came to me. Of course, it the humility of it all. Something that most if not all of us has totally forgotten. it's really to late now, to do anything about it and we have to ride it out, like a wild storm until it passes. Until its able to start getting better. Maybe its just so easy that our punishment is our own selves devaluing of life, that is going to teach us all a lesson. What it...?
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